Tuesday, December 30, 2008

THIS TOO SHALL PASS....

what an year it has been...it truly drove home the point the little prayer tries to make - give me the strength to change what I can and to accept what I cant...as one of my friends said : Macro eco is the luck factor you cant change in your life and if you are from the finance field, all I can say mates is the moral of that story we should remember all times - "THIS TOO SHALL PASS"

But to create a personal note, this year probably has driven home a lot of points in life, the highs of closing large deals, agony of things falling away, best laid plans coming to a naught, the insignificant feeling and the lack of control on lots of things but yes, as the year comes to a close, as I told a few people, for the first time, clarity has occurred in career life : Simple truth realized : acquire skill sets, make great friends, deleverage, build capital, enjoy the journey while moving closer to the ultimate goal of starting out by self....I dont have an idea, but the scare of being on own in the unknown without trappings of an organisation behind self is gone...yes the map is not the terrain but yeah hopeful this surrogate pain will show way...

Personally I always told myself : one day I shall create an organisation which will provide employment to 10000 people - 50000 lives touched - but starting small (driven home by the humility felt in this mayhem) I think I should try to change atleast 1 life : My favorite cause has been education and I have been regularly donating money, Come new year : let me see if I can do more...

When I was 25, the goals I set myself as Prof Ramc would call : ghosts to set at rest by 35 : Tick off basic assets accretion, Investible surplus of 1 cr, work for self, be a role model to atleast 1 person : all slightly superfluous goals but on way for 1, nowhere close to 2, clearing mental cobwebs for 3 and not started on 4...so 5.75 more years....looks like i stand a decent chance :)

and more easy events to tick over the next 18 months:
1. See the pyramids
2. Get involved in the community - will probably assist some school build some assets - a library maybe - I hopefully know enough people who will buy me books :)
3. Plant a tree - a small anecdote about this...when this thought came to my mind, my mind immediately did a ROTI - Return On Time Invested- i realized I had sold my soul to the banker in me - A tree is to me my version of being able to think about someone else other than me...being able to measure growth in cms/ inches in a year and not seconds/ days - my penance in patience
4. Get back to playing chess - a game which I stopped playing since it brings back very painful fond memories
5. Scan all the photos in my home : memories are too precious to be let to the mercy of the elements

So ask me how I did a year from now...

Till then, its just another BRN ( big round number!!) 2008, hope there is peace, joy and happiness all around..

1 comment:

Aditi said...

… hope there is peace, joy and happiness all around… AMEN to that. Add my prayer to yours.
Have a Great Year 2009.

GOD, Just a technicality… Dunno if MS Office Tools can merge a simple Word file with an Excel, b’cos one of the prayers is in Excel… (Lots of numbers… 10000, 50000, 1,2,3,4… you know). Not mine :).